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Apr. 2nd, 2009

Bolt Intent

Captivated by Bolt

I have been captivated by Bolt, and it's been a phenomenal ride so far.

Firstly, about a week ago, I had a dream I was riding in a house on wheels. I had no memory of Bolt in that, or of my real life, but I found this vent where air was coming in, and, much like Bolt, enjoyed the feeling of the air on my face.

Second, a dream I had a couple of days ago, I was speaking to what I thought at the time to be a Disney animator, but was merely a dream character. We talked about me needing to learn to draw Mickey Mouse. I mentioned that I was drawing another character. Funny thing is, I couldn't remember the name of the character I was drawing, and I actually thought it to be a cat.

In truth, my real life was filled with me drawing Bolt, many, many times over these last 4 months.

I leave you with this, something I wrote a few days ago:

If I want to, and I plan to, animate Bolt one day, I must, MUST know him, feel him, and experience him.
He is my symphony. Drawing him is like music; beautiful in it's simplicity and simultaneous complexity.


Mar. 5th, 2009

Bolt Intent

LJ Virus

A message from the Bolt Community of which I am a member:

"There's a message going around LJ that looks something like this:

"Dear friends, I, as the maintainer of the community, have to inform you that, due to the recent tragic events, I've decided to stop using LJ as a platform for my community. From now on, all new depression-related materials should be posted to the new community I've recently created, as for old posts, you will be able to find them there."

And includes links to pages. DO NOT CLICK THE LINKS. It will install a virus which then hacks your LiveJournal account.

If you see a post like the above mentioned PLEASE report it to LJ abuse.

Jan. 31st, 2009

Bolt Chillin

Bolt movie crossover

Just a little movie crossover banner I did for the Bolt2008 community contest we had recently.

Jan. 10th, 2009

Bolt Intent

Drawing the Human Structure

Alright kiddies,

Lately, over the past month or so, I've been fervorously drawing (if that's the right word). Aside from the 150+ times I've drawn Bolt, I'm studying human anatomy through The Structure of Man video course, with instructor Riven Phoenix. He's an awesome instructor. I've only done 6 lessons of the some 200+ available, and already have experienced drawing the 3/4 view in 3D space, as evidenced below. We have the 3/4 view, back view, side view and front view below. Absolutely fascinating.

I am totally passionate about learning to draw now. I did not do much of it my whole 31 years of life, and am making up for lost time. Amazing what you can accomplish in even a month of dedication. How much more, a few years?

Jan. 1st, 2009

Bolt Intent

Happy New Year from Bolt and FurryBlueNaki

Just wanted to shout hey to everyone who reads my journal, and wish all of you a happy and healthy new year.

This year was a bit trying, economy and such, but Bolt makes it all worth it to me.

Life is short, so whatever is your passion, do not hold out on that. We tend to regret more the things we did not do than the things we did.

Life is beautiful, appreciate everything around you. What smells in nature, what colors have you failed to recognize in the past.

Pay attention, and you may learn something. Even nature has a sense of humor.


Dec. 31st, 2008

Bolt Intent

I Heart Drawing Bolt

Lately, oh over the past month or so I've been very interested in the movie Bolt. I've watched it 4 times. Much better in 3D, but I still have a place in my heart for 2D animation.

Bolt's taken such an indelible place in my heart that I've wanted to know more about him. Hence, I started drawing him quite extensively as of a month ago. I've made some great progress. But still, I need to reference the screenshots and coloring books I have been using. When I draw him out of my mind, which I can do with some effort, they do not turn out right. Looks like I just have to ingrain his form into my mind.

Here's a couple of my latest freehand drawings. They took 15 and 22 minutes respectively. That's not really good by any means, but it's much farther along than when I started, and I've only been doing this a month. I don't know how certain artists can draw and shade in 30 seconds what takes me 15 mins to do, but hey, looks like a decent goal.

From screenshot inside the UHaul (15 mins):

From On the Road coloring book (22 mins):


Nov. 30th, 2008

Bolt Intent

(no subject)

I probably should vent; the anticipation is killing me. I don’t know if Disney writes people back to let them know they didn’t get the job nor were considered. Or how long I should wait until I know for a fact that I wasn’t considered.

Well, the jobs I applied for, all three of them are still on their Careers board. And it’s like 90% of the things they need in jobs I don’t have experience in. But I have loads of other experience that can cross over. For instance, they want someone with Java experience, but mine is more with .NET, so it’s different, but doesn’t mean I can’t learn Java.

There is a position in the animation department of their Studio that works in the pipeline. Whoa ho ho, man that would be so sweet to work with the animation team. I have no idea if I’ll fit the part because of my lack of experience with animation. But I can do reports and database and scripting, which are other things they need. So maybe I don’t fit all the desirables, but I’m strong in areas that balance well.

I’m somewhat irked that I seemed to have studied the wrong subjects in school. I mean, had I gone art and animation, I may have better chances, but then again, I’m a programmer so that’s not all bad. Again, haven’t heard either way, but the wait is not too fun. I do have a stable job, but the chance for advancement is almost nill, and at Disney, I’d probably have the same level of challenge if not more, and I could handle it. Why oh why did I study Physics in my undergrad. How can that even apply in this field?

Now I wonder and keep going through interview situations in my head. Are they more influenced by someone who is really out of themselves, and fun (which I can and will be if given the opportunity)? Or would they rather have someone who lines up 100% to their requirements? I can’t say how fun and team-oriented others are, but competition sucks. I’m going against others who may be getting their dream job. I’m good in a lot of things, but I’m no genius. Well, if you count SQL and Oracle, I’m pretty close. But animation, drawing, I suck. Well, not exactly suck, but on a scale of 1-10 I’d probably be a 5 sucky. Just need to put my mind to it, and I can draw some good stuff.

I used to be able to draw really well, but I have since gotten rusty. Now I’m trying with Bolt. I want to draw him in any position without having to reference him. And he doesn’t appear to be a very complicated character, but my proportion is so off. Each time is like a different character.

*breathes* I just don’t know if I can be that social butterfly, the out of myself, full of pep, fun Disney style in an interview if I ever get one. I keep doubting myself because I don’t have all the requirements. But I visualize myself interviewing and actually getting the job. It will be tough, but well worth it either way. *sighs* maybe it wasn’t meant for me to work for Disney. I don’t know.

Now, regarding the movie Bolt, I must be a sucker for feeling sadness because when I've watched Bolt the last 2 times, I come away feeling a bit sad as it ends. And the scene where they were playing that song "Barking at the Moon" with the line "that home belongs to you" made me tear up because I'd rather be at Bolt's home than my own (if he were real). It's very mixed emotions I have, and they'll last the next few days I'm sure. Bolt is finally happy, and I'm sad. What strangeness ensues. I actually shed a few tears this time in the movie.

But I must be a sucker for feeling sadness because when I've watched this, I come away feeling a bit sad as it ends. And the scene where they were playing that song "that home belongs to you" made me tear up because I'd rather be at Bolt's home than my own (if he were real). It's very mixed emotions I have, and they'll last the next few days I'm sure. Bolt is finally happy, and I'm sad. What strangeness ensues. I actually shed a few tears this time in the movie.


When Mittens the cat was teaching Bolt how to play, and they were traveling in the rain, I teared up a bit to "that home belongs to you" song.

When Bolt's lightning-bolt wore off in the rain and he had his tongue out all happy, I teared up.

I felt for Bolt coming back finding the 2nd replacement Bolt.

The studio fire had me tear up a bit as well when Bolt laid next to Penny.

And the end when Bolt could finally be a dog. That always gets the waterworks going.

Nov. 23rd, 2008

Bolt Intent

FurryBlueNaki Fursona

I know that many of you were dying to finally see my fursona. I only wish I had posted him sooner. AnimeCat was commissioned, and did a superb job. My fursona, FurryBlueNaki was completed on 8/17/2008.

He is an ice-blue anthro wolf. As you can see, he looks relatively young, but has wisdom beyond his years. As a sort of Shaman, he sees the world in a way that is different from most. He is curious, inquisitive, always seeking knowledge. Sometimes I find myself fighting internally with the concept of him because he wants to have fun, and I take life just a bit too seriously at times. In all, very good work, and I am proud to have had Nicole working on this project.

Personally I am still intrigued by the Bolt movie I saw yesterday, and am continually working to keep myself in balance emotionally, mentally and physically. I can't say who my favorite character is, FurryBlueNaki, or Bolt.


Nov. 22nd, 2008

Bolt Intent

(no subject)

Below contains some possible spoilers about Bolt which I just saw today, in 3D.

Just thought I’d send a few lines about my Bolt experience. Bolt was definitely more than I had expected. I thought the humor of the hamster Rhino would be overdone and corny, but it was actually quite good. The moonlit scene above the pound was perhaps the most beautiful, and Bolt had an amazing character about him. I really felt for him. Disney has the sense of emotion and canine mannerisms down pat.

It was a very heartwarming story, and I liked being taken through a variety of emotions. The fact there was a 2nd Bolt was very nice as well, and I really wanted to hug them both. When the 2nd Bolt ran off being scared, I did feel some concern as to his welfare.

At the end, when they zoomed out, I did feel a little sad it was over. I know it was a happy ending, but I can’t help feeling a little sadness. I guess cause there isn’t more of Bolt to see. I really like that he was able to finally be a dog, that was especially touching to me.

In all, definitely worth the extra for the 3D. I almost can’t imagine watching it without the 3D now. They could have done a few more popping out of the screen moments, but I liked how natural Bolt looked in the 3D. Even Penny, some scenes her hair just jumped out of the screen. Very nicely done. If they have the DVD in 3D, I’ll go for that, unless I have a Blu-Ray player by then, which I will go for that version. I really hope to see a making of. The animators are some of the luckiest people. I know they worked their asses off to get there. John Lasseter has perhaps the best job in the world.

Even now, I'm still somewhat affixed to Bolt's world. I loved the 2nd Bolt very much too. Still a little sad it's over. I can't imagine they won't release it also in 3D. A bit money pot here. Easily one of my favorite movies of all time. Right now, I'm still absorbed in the Bolt-Space of this film, so can't think of much else than the feelings it covers over me.


Jul. 18th, 2008

Bolt Intent

Long Time

Hey to everyone who reads my journal. It sure has been a long time since I've posted. It's a bit of distractions, but mostly me forgetting. I've commissioned Animecat to work on my fursona, and it was coming along very well. She took her time making sure it was her best. So far it's been over 3 months. I know she's busy with 10-15 other commissions (possibly more).

Unfortunately, [info]animecat has had a death in her family, so I would like to send my condolences.

As some of you may know, a couple of months ago I had an accident in gymnastics and spent a week at the hospital. I've recovered, but they have me on Coumadin (a blood thinner) since I had a mild stroke. There are no lasting effects, thank gosh. But I was left with some $1000 in doctors bills that were not covered by my insurance.

My finances are starting to pick up again. Barring any other circumstances, I am hoping to have my commission done within a month or so. My mom will be helping me put a fursuit together when we get the funds. Probably will be around Halloween or so. Would be very nice to wear a fursuit to work since the past winners have not been that sophisticated.

I'm also planning on writing a second book. My first is out of print. It was a Sci-Fi fantasy novel. My next book will be nonfiction, and though I didn't get to it today, I'll hopefully get some writing done over the weekend. Other that that, life's been pretty good. At least I've had a little time for meditation and some inward seeking. I can really enjoy it when I see my inner child as my fursona. And what Animecat has done so far is impressive. I will post later when she finishes.

Hope you all are having a great day.

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